The First Crush In My Life

'Hong, dun tell me that you have never had any relationships before?'.'Yes, i do not have any....', that was what i replied when my special task exco in college forwarded such a question to me in my first week in college. I was proud at that time.....hehe ....i am just like a clean and white paper....without any records at all...but somehow deep within me, i long knew that i really do need someone to talk to...a part of me has been waiting for someone special to appear....and then...one day....without realising much, i have been starting texting someone almost every night, started chatting with her and i feel that somehow something has changed, there was a new beginning and a new type of feeling, which i felt prettily uncertain of at the very beginning, i felt very comforting when i started chatting with her, not a feeling that i can get when i am chatting with other female friends of mine....then i started to wonder....what am i really expecting from it? Then days passed by, i took down my mask and started chatting with her in my rather crazy and insane way, just like the way i talk to my family. We have the same personalities... acting very crazily sometimes and acting noramally sometimes. To her, this is tha LAW OF EXTREME NEUTRALISATION, whereby i find the concept rather interesting. Both of us are going for the same career in the future, but we are not in the same college and will not be going to the same country to persue our career in the future. 'Pathetic!', that is the very first word that came across my mind, the only way for us to get to undstand each other is through messages. Both of us like each other quite a lot, but through messages only...are we being realistic? We don;t meet up quite often for now and were afraid that our family will soon find out....what are we supposed to do, but by that time, i found out that everything was too late already, and there is a feeling that told us that we can't bear to be apart or just odinary friends...too late to back out. I tossed a coin and a friend of mine wants me to make a bet. If i get 2 heads out of the 3 turns of tossing of coins, i should not think too much about it and go for it, if not, i just have to be best friends with her, but at the end, i got 3 heads. two friends of mine who were there were shocked. Is is god's will, we don't know, so i made a pact with her for a year and after that we have to come up with anther decison before going abroad. It would be 5 years for us to finish our course in overseas. But i am willing to take that risk, not just for her, but for myself. A real challenge indeed in life for both of us.